Sitting on my board in the warm, clear
Pacific waters off the coast of Costa Rica, I couldn’t help but smile at the privilege
of being where I am. I love the beach (here, “la playa”), and I love getting
out in the water fighting against some waves. It’s especially nice when you get
to look back toward land and see tropical mountains covered in lush green—right up
to the coconut palms lining the beach. You’d be tempted to call it paradise.
On this day I had finally decided to
use my entire day’s budgeted $10 to rent a surfboard. I really enjoyed surfing
with friends in college, so I figured I couldn’t pass up the opportunity while
I’m living near the beach of some of Costa Rica’s best surf, Dominical.
I chose the 8’ board because I know I’m
pretty novice, and definitely out of shape, then walked out to the beach with a
new American friend. Paddling out, duck-diving through turbulent waves and
swimming against the strong rip tides, I was quickly reminded how exhausting surfing
is!
But I persevered.
“I’ve only got the board for a day,
right? And all that lap-swimming I’ve been doing is for such a time as this!”
Proving I can rent a surfboard in Costa Rica |
Contrary to common myth, surfing isn’t
that much like snowboarding. There’s no lift to take you out to sea, and then
your mountain either turns out to be a hill, or drops an avalanche on you to
throw you swirling around in the salt water, trying to protect your head from
getting hit by the board strapped to your leg.
I’d been out in the ocean more than two
hours (!), my arms were completely fatigued, my bare abdomen raw, and my hopes
of catching a wave pretty low.
Then there’s the social factor at
play: you can feel all the other surfers are watching you and judging your
skill. Pride reassures my mind with excuses: “I’m just out of shape.” “I’ve
already been out here 2 hours.” “I haven’t surfed in more than two years.” “Can’t
you tell I know which waves are good for me?” … but I’m still not riding any
waves.
Then I had a profound thought: I don’t
really love surfing.
Two-plus hours out in the ocean and I
really hadn’t even been surfing. I’d
been sitting on my board, watching waves, paddling around, enjoying the sun,
sights and saltwater and watching other dudes surf. I was trying to surf, but was a frustrated failure.
Then the other shocking realization: I
often love God like I love surfing. I don’t.
I like the challenge of the spiritual
disciplines and the fulfillment they provide. I like the gifts God gives. I
love the idea of grace, the commandment to love, and benefits of morality.
I even love that my God is powerful,
righteous, compassionate, creative, loving, fearful, just, relational, and
good.
But I often don’t love God Himself.
Dr. John Coe (see previous post)
writes, “the soul must learn to love God just for Himself in such a manner that
He... is the center of all things.”
Just as I would say I love surfing,
even though I’ve spent numerous sessions without actually dropping in and
riding a wave, I say I love God. Even when I’m not actually good at surfing, I appreciate
the opportunities to experience beauty and to be in the ocean that surfing
provides. Likewise, even when I don’t get a taste of God, I deceive myself into
thinking I’m loving Him because I am surrounded by an encouraging Christian
community or because the Bible spoke truth into my life.
Though the analogy is admittedly weak,
the idea helps me see the difference between loving God and loving all the
things that surround Him while missing the essence.
To bring the story a happy ending…
yes, I did finally catch a wave. I spent over half an hour floating in the water
next to my board, about done, and then the right wave happened to present itself.
Suddenly, I was standing up on my board being propelled forward with all the
hard-earned thrill that surfers dream of.
I hope we all get the same experience
of God. Keep pursuing Him. Keep reading the Bible and praying. Stay active in
the local church and get discipled. It’s all worth it, because God is worth it.
All the peripheral joys are great, but there’s nothing like actually
experiencing God.
Happy surfing!
Happy surfing!
I have set the LORD always before me;
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices;
my flesh also dwells secure.
You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
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